Guess it’s a nagging feeling while doing this sem’s exam papers…. I feel that i’ll not perform up to my expectation. I feel that I’m not able to get the grades I wanted with the same amt of effort I’ve put in for the past 3 sem. Now after every paper, I cannot safely say that I’ll be able to get an A or B. The reassuring feeling is just not there… This feeling seems to get worse when mistakes start to appear for different paper.. Oh my, it’s really mentally straining…. My gut feeling tells me that my grades for that paper will depend on how others fare…(cos I suppose every grade assigned is dependent on the mean grade for the whole cohort)…. that gives me hell a lot of uncertainty. Not that I’m hoping that all others do badly..(of course not)…. think it’s because confidence is draining away from me as more subjects come to me… think I’m getting tired and desperately need a rest from all the studying. Argh…… I need a BREAK!!!!!

Ok....i’m going to whin in this entry…. ya, had my DE paper today.. n what I’ve fear did came true… careless mistake. It’s not only careless, but stupid also. Think it’s gonna kill off the whole qn liao. To think I’ve been doing all the don’t care and 0 and 1 throughout all the tut… then still have to make such stupid mistakes in the final piece of assignment. Wah lao…. Somemore it does not apply to just 1, but 2 qns. Think plus those parts in which I’m not able to do, a B will be some form of blessing. C will be satisfactory, D will be unthinkable….. haha

Ya, I have high hopes for the exams this sem… although this sem is not as hardworking as previous sems, but I’m hoping for miracles to happen.. haha.. nv mind, I’ll try my best for my last 2 papers.(but have to get out of this whiny mood….argh…)
Will have to wait to the end of May before I know the results of this exam. Keeping my fingers cross in the meantime.

Well.. actually this is my second post for the day.... the first got deleted when the stupid 56k modem hanged.. ya, i'm using 56k modem to go online now. Cos my bro haven't renew the broadband yet... sigh
That explains y i haven't been updating this blog. Ya, this is one of the reason... n it's not because i've been mugging hard lately... it's actually the opposite, i'm desperately seeking for time to make up for the slacking hours in bed.

Had my taste of what's gonna to come in my way for the next 2 weeks...
Well, had my 1st core paper today. It's 'doable' to summarize. But as usual, i'll nv know if there's careless mistakes here and there. Furthermore, there are usually parts in which i anyhow bomb thru. So i guess i can consider the marks allocated there given back to the tutors. Ya, so although it's 'doable', it's hard...*contradicting*.... whatever....

As it goes for the rest of my exams in ntu, my confidence for each paper is exponentially proportional to the number of days for the exams.
So.... wonder how much confidence have i left for my next paper, EE2003: Semiconductor. 40%, 50%..... dunno..

Been thinking a lot while slacking lately also, hmmm... wanting to do lots of things after exams, had lots of things to do also... but well, that's after exams.
Might not complete them anyway, especially with the 'wantings'.

For those of ya still mugging hard/trying to mug hard out there, 加油 and good luck wor... that's for myself too.... =)